Search for Rhyme and Reason

Just home from depositing a check received from Chunk E. Cheeses. My very first paycheck; $292.54. $7 of the check went to buy girl scout cookies, and about $8.50 to rent a couple of movies. The rest to pay off my school loan, which is late, and very urgent, being due on the 28th of each month. Right now I'm mailing in the payments and oh, it is so sweet. Not sweet like a cookie or cake, with a short high and then the drop, but the sweetness of a well-done steak, chewy and thick in the mouth, with a lingering aftertaste and feeling of well-being.
So I've taken a few steps on my journey out of debt. Sometimes I feel like Milo in The Magic Tollbooth beside me a distractor with infinite number of vegetables to place in the salad bar to feed an infinite number of stomaches on my search for Rhyme and Reason. But to escape the salad bar and malingering managers now would mean certain financial doom. So I suck it up and believe what Oprah says, "Mediocrity always attacks excellence" and "Forgiveness is when you thank the person for the experience." These few tidbits have sustained me when generally I would rather have crumbled. Just having faith in general sustains us. So I am alive and paying my debts.