Our Locus of Focus

Stuck, that's where I was today. Stuck like three fingers in a two-year-old's nostril. Even more than that, stuck like the booger those fingers were trying to reach. It's frustrating, that booger. Something was being produced today, but I couldn't see it, because my focus was on "stuck." Curt Rosengren, of The Occupational Adventure says "What you focus on grows. Redirect your focus to where you want to go as if you already are there." It's true. Have you ever just woken up and start looking at the hairs that grow on your arms? They become a forest. And any teenager knows that one pimple can ruin an evening of fun, simply because the offending mark is in focus. So if we "zoom out," or re-focus ourselves to see the big picture, everything seems a teensy bit brighter.
Zooming out, what I did accomplish today was to get an interview. Mr. Cheeses. I'll be an employee before you know it, checks will be zipping out from my mailbox, and I'll have that thousand dollars sitting in my account. Another accomplishment is discovering another site that offers freelance work, www.getafreelancer.com . This site not only offers work for writers, but also graphic designers, and computer programmers. I've already had one response from one mala007, who needs some articles written, lickity-split. This may function better for me than www.online-writing-jobs.com, because the turn-around rate there is pretty slow. On getafreelancer, you have a certian amount of time to bid before the project is taken off the board. The site shows how many people have bid on a project, so boosting confidence if you are a beginning freelancer. Mala007 sent me the details of the project.
By refocusing on my big picture, that of paying my bills, and not focusing on the stuckness, I stood up to my inability to move and read a speech to unhappiness. As Yolanda Nava shares about her mother in It's All in the Frijoles, "Mama believed perfection was not out of our reach if only we would aim for it, taking one small step each day towards our inherent goodness. 'Remember mijita, God is in the details. God is in the pots and pans. In every small thing that we do or say.'"