I just discovered craigslist.com! How could a wonderful site like this go under my radar for so long? They have everything under the sun listed for your convinience. It's like I've hit the end of the rainbow and here's my pot of gold. And you can specify what area you are looking around. To whomever invented "the list," a thank you from me.
For a laugh read the personals. They give me the giggles.
Monday, May 28, 2007
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
Life Without
I haven't taken my meds for the second night running and I feel fine. Besides actually feeling. So have you ever seen Garden State? Where he decides not to take the drugs anymore? Well, everything just seems more beautiful and more deep. Like I feel like I have a greater appreciation for things without the medication. I feel more lonely. Which I think is good. Why should you stop feelings which for thousands of years have propigated the human race?
I miss my dad and wish my mom didn't still love my dad and deny it all the freakin' time. It's like the only person who can tell her that she's sad is herself. And she can't tell herself because she's in denial. And I think way too much about my mom and her feelings. What about my life?
Well, it's going well. The two job thing with freelance writing or marketing on the side may take some getting used to, but I'm handling it alright.
Oh, side-note - my mom doesn't know I'm not taking the meds, so keep it on the DL, alright peoples?
I miss my dad and wish my mom didn't still love my dad and deny it all the freakin' time. It's like the only person who can tell her that she's sad is herself. And she can't tell herself because she's in denial. And I think way too much about my mom and her feelings. What about my life?
Well, it's going well. The two job thing with freelance writing or marketing on the side may take some getting used to, but I'm handling it alright.
Oh, side-note - my mom doesn't know I'm not taking the meds, so keep it on the DL, alright peoples?
Friday, April 27, 2007
Return to Sender
Written 02/26/2007
My mother has impossible requests
"Hate your sister."
"Don't be like your father."
As if I could take away the apin
I desperately siphon
Into a car that is out of gas
When it rolls, and I with it, I rejoice
I, eye, that window to the
soul lies, "Pity me."
So I continue on the forged path
Cutting way through bramble
towards mythical golden cities,
happiness.
For her and for me,
Simple things,
Bread and butter and tea
Deocomposition, rendition
of all the poems I just read
backwards, coming out
to say "Hello" and answering
my mother's impossible requests
Managing them into lost cubby holes
Marked "Return to Sender."
My mother has impossible requests
"Hate your sister."
"Don't be like your father."
As if I could take away the apin
I desperately siphon
Into a car that is out of gas
When it rolls, and I with it, I rejoice
I, eye, that window to the
soul lies, "Pity me."
So I continue on the forged path
Cutting way through bramble
towards mythical golden cities,
happiness.
For her and for me,
Simple things,
Bread and butter and tea
Deocomposition, rendition
of all the poems I just read
backwards, coming out
to say "Hello" and answering
my mother's impossible requests
Managing them into lost cubby holes
Marked "Return to Sender."
The Update
It's with much guilt that I come back to my poor neglected blog: far from writing every day, I've been writing quite sporadically, trying to make up for lost time gradually. The truth is, I've been busier. Kroger and Chuck E. Cheese, but I feel that any excuse for not keeping my dear readers updated with the nitty-gritty of my life is no excuse at all.
Lately, I'm going to be even busier: I found that instead of the $200 I've been expecting out of my paycheck, I'll be receiving about $100. After all, I am but a lowly sacker. That means I either have to abandon my schedule or make up for lost monies. I choose the latter. So I e-mailed old Talia for some writing jobs and have been bidding on projects at www.getafreelancer.com. Yesterday I wrote some articles for $10, long way from my $130 I have to make up for this month. That'd about cover my library fine. However, I'm happy in the decision I've made and will expend every effort to accomplishment. If I can simply be done with my debt in July or August, I will be satisfied.
Lately, I'm going to be even busier: I found that instead of the $200 I've been expecting out of my paycheck, I'll be receiving about $100. After all, I am but a lowly sacker. That means I either have to abandon my schedule or make up for lost monies. I choose the latter. So I e-mailed old Talia for some writing jobs and have been bidding on projects at www.getafreelancer.com. Yesterday I wrote some articles for $10, long way from my $130 I have to make up for this month. That'd about cover my library fine. However, I'm happy in the decision I've made and will expend every effort to accomplishment. If I can simply be done with my debt in July or August, I will be satisfied.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Life as a Dish
My life now consists of a main dish of Kroger with a side of Chuck E. Cheese. Probably Monday I'll call the nursing school counseler and make an appointment. Can't wait to figure out what classes I'll need. Since classes cost, and being discounted at Tarrant County College, I might go there for a bit of time.
Time is always ticking away, so I want to put my clock in perspective. I've figured it and at the rate I'm going I'll have paid off my debt by mid July and have reached my goal of a thousand dollars in savings by mid-August. There's a timeline. And like any good little boy or girl, I'll mark my progress by the chart. There's considerations such as doctors appointments so the schedule is elastic and flexible. There's room for an emergency. But I feel that this goal which I am working so hard towards, of being debt free is within my grasp. I can see it on paper and life, although consisting of work, is bittersweet.
Time is always ticking away, so I want to put my clock in perspective. I've figured it and at the rate I'm going I'll have paid off my debt by mid July and have reached my goal of a thousand dollars in savings by mid-August. There's a timeline. And like any good little boy or girl, I'll mark my progress by the chart. There's considerations such as doctors appointments so the schedule is elastic and flexible. There's room for an emergency. But I feel that this goal which I am working so hard towards, of being debt free is within my grasp. I can see it on paper and life, although consisting of work, is bittersweet.
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